And so it must…
June 23rd, 2008 by eeqbalzHello there sports fans!
I see another week has just whizzed by… pretty fast isn’t it? Knowing that we’re not getting any younger each day doesn’t seem to affect how we perceive time. In fact, thanks to our hectic lifestyle, we just want the week to be over and get to the good stuff : WEEKENDS!
During my childhood days, I always wondered why sometimes my dad was quite reluctant to take us on trips like to the beach or go on a picnic by the river. It only occur to me now that I’m working, weekends are the only time where YOU as a human being has some meaning on this plane called earth.
Otherwise you might be just another pencil pusher slash keyboard puncher slash wage slave with the rest of the world. I now envy the laughters and smiles coming from retirees. They look to me younger than I am FEELING. I guess the burden of work are finally lifted off these people I consider lucky and somehow their tired wings are now flapping tirelessly almost celebrating the freedom they so yearn.
So there was I spending my weekend last week with much joy especially after getting my supposedly working trip to another state that weekend cancelled by the higher up (ALRIGHT!!!). I watched some reruns from my favourite and (yes you guessed right…) much sentimental (to me) tv series Dr. House! I bought all the 4 seasons at RM5 per dvd.
All in all I spent 115 bucks and it was worth every cent spent! The pictures were clear and the sound was perfect. I like the old guy (Dr. Gregory House is played by Hugh Laurie); he’s funny, wacky, and most of the time miserable. I wish I had his rebellious nature against the normalities of life and stucked up people without giving a damn about what others WILL say.
He’s a hero in my books. Establishments be damned! I began to watch and love the show during my UIA days. My office subscribed to Astro originally for… ummm not really sure what was the reason for the subscription since nobody really watch the channel. So each evening by 7 o’clock I had the office all to myself. Sometimes a colleague would stay back and slept over. AXN would air the show on Tuesday nights at around 9.30pm if I’m not mistaken.
So you see not only this show was and continues to be somewhat thought provoking whilst poking fun at normal people, it really remind me off those nights where an idiot box showing a person pretending to be untouchable or unfazed by the realities of life by masking it away with an aura of misery, can really be enjoyable. I could spent those nights with somebody whom I lost sometime early last year. Humph… sad stuff…
On another note, frankly I’ve lost my ability to write these days. The passion and the mood is not there. It is just like going to a place which hold so much memory but has already forgotten you. Not much there although you want it so. Hollow and cold to the touch. It’s there and yet its a blur to you. Just like a second helping of your favourite nasi ayam. Wont taste the same after gulping the plate the first time around. For you sentimental dolts, its just like first love isnt it. Nothing beats it. Never will.
I only get into the mood of writing if :-
i. I listen to some old songs; and
ii. I write something about the days of old.
Write up to the part before "he’s my hero" part, is just a bunch of English essay. Pretty lame and dull. After that, as I was lamenting the days of old wif an added twist of similarly old music, the flow of ideas (with the all too similar dashes of melancholy) came like the water flushing the toilet bowl. Great I need help!
Frozen and held down in the past;
As I lay down deep in the dust;
Hoping forever the memories will last;
Sadly all will perish and so it must.
